since last wk, ive been spending time on preparatns for prelims. Its realli exhausting mentally & physically for me coz i hate studying n sch. Taking tis path to Olevels wasn't my choice but mum's.. i had to follow her orders i guess..cant wait to grad sn in about 2 mths time? tats still longg for me...
anw, weekends was okay i suppose..went out on sat to bestie's house n heard him karaoke..& then went to his hse again on sun & we did the same thing bt since i had to do my art, we head out to Raffles to snap some photos for it & i started working on the prep work early monday morning. which is today..hmm..the art ppr jus now was okie..but i couldnt stand the 3 hrs of sitting down coz i have this back problem & it affects my breathing & i felt like i cant bear w it anymore..
i jus prayed hard i could finish it coz it was the onli subj i could depend on..
anw..there r some things on my mind tat bothers me..
ive been having this sweating disorder since i was a kid & i felt awful & ashamed of it. The feeling of disgrace frm it occurs everytime wenever im out w anyone & wen im xperiencing it. It may be a normal thing to some people wen they hear me say bout it but as a girl it really brings down my self-esteem..do u see normal girls sweating wen they r jus walking for a few distance or wen the weather is jus right for the day? well no is it. its very rare for girls to have this kind of thing. maybe its in my genes..& i cnt change it i guess. even if im out w bestie, i still feel ashamed although he's seen me at my worse..i jus hope things change as i grow up later..coz right now i feel ashame wen i wana meet new people..its one of barriers tat prevents me frm doing so..
well i hope someone knws how i feel...