My Life Story

2009-09-21T08:17:00.000-07:00

HEY PEOPLE!~
i knw i knw...
its been longg i abandon this blog of mine..
firstly, my pc's spoiled.
secondly, i'm a busylady;D
thirdly, i didnt really have e time cause im bad at managing time. lol
fourthly, i think my skin's boring & i need to change but im not too sure how.

sooo thats it really.
my first day of Raya was great! but i manage to go 2 houses.
cause the 2nd house is granny's & so me
& 2nd bro helped her served her visitors all the way till night time!
so tats the reason why we only covered 2 houses. my hands were in pain cause of the never ending dishwashing, but i build firmer biceps thou. lol!
thou u tink it may not be a good experience to be doing work during Raya, but i felt like theres was a need for me to be there for granny thou shes not my real blood granny..I love her aniway. ;) (awww...)

so just nw was 2nd outing. Not bad la. But i ate alot! damn it. i feel so guilty now.
& i had blisters too! ;(( painful u knw.
every yr Raya confirm got one! thats why i hated heels. lol.
ni la org kalo da biasa pkai sport shoeee jek! hahah!

so anw now is like 12midnite & im outside at macpherson cyber cafe.
now is the only time i could update. thanks to bro for taking me here.;D
mum & dad confirm waiting for me at home. balik maybe they nag nag nag. hehehehe.

ok la fellow mates! i gtg now.;D
ill upload Hari Raya Photos soon!
wait up k. *winks*
anw, to someone, imissyou:)
tc!

2009-08-11T08:50:00.000-07:00

It's 11.50pm.

I feel so lost, distracted, stone & most importantly stress with the CMS group project! argggh.

How i wish I could get my sleep now. :(

It's been long ever since I got my beauty sleep.

Eyebags are getting more obvious & my face is getting more dull.

Ternyata, sports management has got to do with business.

& Only a business minded & sporty person can survive in this course man.

I wana sleeep!! but I can't. :(

I have to sacrifice for my group. Damn it.

Stupid MS Office not working.

Cant even do my power point.

Cant believe im blogging.

maybe some may be wondering why am I

too busy to even have time to update my blog ryte?

Mayb if I could buy more time then I will update frequently kot.

lol. ;P

anw, just now after school went out with Mum to Airport to buy new sport shoe for myself.

been craving for a running show lately.

my current nike shoe is only for x-training actualy so it

didnt give much comfort to me when i'm running.

Had a good time with mum.

She's like a bestfriend to me.

We bought chocolates at candy empire & ate infront of fountain :)

Can see that she's enjoying the freedom of not working already.

But I do get worried sometimes when she's alone at home or even at work last time.

She's turning 60 in a few yrs time.

Tell me how worried can I be? :(

sigh.

I love Mum.

appreciate yours as long as they are still alive.

ps: 1 more day to your special day. :)

2009-07-29T03:26:00.000-07:00

hey people.. its been 2days Ive been staying home due to my sickness.
I was suspected with H1N1 symptoms but luckily wasnt hospitalise cause
it wont be comfortable for me to stay away from home..:(
Thought of going to sch on tues morning cause I had CMS roleplay but I
was really attached to my bed & I had to force myself to get to the clinic.
I can say this is the 2nd time Im experiencing a very bad fever only tat tis is worse. =S
But today I felt much much better cause I get to eat my fav junks! ;D wee~
I ate cereals, chocolates & durian quite early in the morn today..
& Im feeling much better aft tat, weird but true. :)

Thanks to Mum for sacrificing all her time to look aft me & feeding to my cravings.
She was there for me right from the start & I know she always will. :)
& not forgetting, to all good friends & bestfriends who tag & smsed me well wishes
in regards to my recovery, I really appreciate ur care & concern. & Sorry for not replying
at the moment cause I need to get ppd carD!;D hehehee.

Ohyes, U guys wana know something? U all know ryte about the nenek that jual keropok has became
a hot topic now. & just now while I was watching tv, sumbody came knocking on my door continuosly.
Both mum & me were really afraid to open the door cause we suspected it was 'her'.
I didnt know wat to do coz my heart was beating really fast. I prayed & prayed inside my heart.
I tink mum was doing that too! lol.
Then abt 15mins dad suddenly open the door from outside which gave me a shock! like one aft another gitu.
as usual, mum will go to the door & welcome my dad's return from work but wen she wanted to close the gate,
suddenly an indo girl was walking fast towards our door w a big plastic bag of flowers, not kropok eh.
it was so sudden & she came from nowhere.. baik2 kita da baik demam le demam balik tau! haha!
& she was talking really2 fast I couldnt catch any word tat she was talking. I felt like buying the flowers
but mum rejected. So both mum & me suspected tat the one knocking on our door was tat gerl.
But still we need to keep a lookout on 'dangerous people' if u knw wat i mean.
But hell my heart was still beating fast aft tat. Phew.

Well, I'll stop here for now. Dun wana feel too insecure if I go on talking bout it.
toodles people! Have a nice day loves!:)

2009-07-26T07:32:00.000-07:00

hey people:) im down with a very very bad cough now. Feel like dying cause Im coughing every few seconds. *faints*
the flam taste like blood, the head feels like bursting & the chest feels like shrinking. argh.
I dun really get this feeling everytime u knw. Thats why Im not used to it. lol. okay, I wont go on
talking bout it so much..

Lately, been rushing through with projects etc. Show Choir is taking it slow for now. Lucky thing no shows
for now or else I will be missing lessons again. But there'll be upcoming shows near oct & then we gonna get
busy again! But for now I really need to focus focus focus in class!

Ohgod, can i not come to sch tmrow? I feel so weak;(

2009-07-07T08:14:00.000-07:00

Hey Frens & Loves. :) sorry for not replying to ur tags. Didnt have the time to check man.

Sorry k? Some tags I knw its way too long already to reply. But nvm la..hee.

I'll update tomorrow. C ya:)

Tags Replied

Zaza; Nopee. Just letting out my feelings je :) thanks for asking yeah. :)

Mina; heyloo cutiepie! ;D hehe. org tu yg slalu busy.. Meet up soon okie?:) jus set date & time..

Yana; ok done! link u alrrdyy. :) i miss u too hunney:)

WID; Ur very welcomee prettyhead! :)

Billah; Thankss so much for being there for me in times of need:) u were always there. I appreciate ur help & presence love. Lovee u too!

Azizan; Heyloo my frenn:) u r linked k! cya ard in sch. tc :)

Elah; Hey Elah!:) yep ur linked. Love u too cutie.:)

Syafiee; Thanks for ur care & concern bro! :) im okiee already. Hee.

KUEEN; bukan taknak share.. sometimes its jus hard for me to express my feelings. But dun worry la k, u knw I do share some things w u..:) Thanks so much..

2009-06-19T22:47:00.000-07:00

What shud U do wen the ones your close with suddenly change?

& then U feel that U start to drift apart from them..

when U know that U don't want that to happen..

Uve tried ur best to work things out, finding your way back to the right path

but it didnt seemed to work..

U try not to give up coz U know there's still hope in that relationship..

& that things will be back to normal like before..

But wen U know he or she has given up on everything, what shud U do?

give up too?

Wen we are the ones who are suppose to give them a hand,

the strength, to let them get back on their feet again..

But U cant do it alone..

They are the ones who need to help themselves first,

b4 we even give a hand..

right?

I wish for miracles to happen..

I wish to have a reason to make me smile again..

I wish.

2009-06-15T23:47:00.000-07:00

hey readers!(:

my pc's been down for quite some time & i had to reboot etc.

so my bet for not updating almost a month yeah. hee.

so anws, lots of events been happening in tis month & its really tiring, chaotic but super awesome! *smile wide wide*.

As U can see, the picts below was our Flipside performance held on the 8th & 9th June at Esplanade Concourse.

To all Friends & Families who came,

we all hope that U really enjoyed every bit of our performance

& looking forward for more of our performances & we really really

do appreciate your time & presence.(:

It really brought up my spirit wen I see my Love ones there supporting us! *not lying*

well some commented that I didnt really smile or had much face expressions..but nevertheless I'll improvise it on the next show aite.

Anw tis is the first time im performing in public so felt nervous here & there..hehe;D

ohyes,

on the 13th june my class had an amazing race around Spore.

Not really the whole of Spore la..but near marina bay, ct hall area there.

But going ard those places je can make me kurus u knw! ;O penat tk terkata.

Thanks so much to our Beloved Chairman

Syafi'ee & his Girlfriend & Fadillah

for making it a fun one, helping out

& of coz to our CA Mr William or Will.i.am. hehe!

thats wat they called him. ;P

without them, none of this was possible & our class bonding wont get any closer than b4. But sadly, I dun have the picts now but will get them soon from Zuzu.(:

& Thanks Zuzu for being a great leader & thanks for the band! hee

k la k la, dun wana crap alot nanti boring pulak.

Enjoy the picts k!

ohya before that, to names that I didnt mention or wat, dun take to heart or amik hati k. Too many to mention & I also lupa2. Remind me if u want ur name in.(:

tc.

Thanks to our photographer Hyekel & ....??

to anyone who took our picts.

Credits to u all!(:

Presenting to U..

Ite College East Show Choir!

Blurred By Greatness

'..you can dance...you can ji-ve..'

'..aint no mountain high enoughh...'

'..baby that's the Best Of Me..'

'..it will all get Better In Time..'

'..Hallelujah..hallelujah..'
'..Starmaker..'

'..mamma mia..'

~

T H E . E N D

not all picts are in, those who want them email me k! (:
have a nice day!

2009-05-16T21:54:00.000-07:00

heyhey readers!

really sorry for the lack of updates again! heee.

For this 2 wks, been spending most of my time on cca tat took up almost 4 times a wk. & it ends till 7plus everydy. So for sure u knw i wont have time to update. *grins*

currently im researching for my Sport science project. I tink its really confusing man. CA1 is just ard the corner! & I tink i need someone to guide me on tis subject :(

pretty please?

i miss the bonding in PA. what happen to us man?:(

Below are the picts for last wk..

10 May 09 ~ Mother's Day

One of the Best Mum in the world! ;)

one of her favourite brands:)

11 May 09

Care Session

kumpulan k-nite! lol.one of the coolest pict we ever took
the stage outside library. cool kan? ;)
satu2 muke tk ready. lol taking a breather b4 the last two station
ni part i swear kaki da lenguh :S
before we sprint back to HPL
lari mcm anjing tpi still dpt 4th position. lol.
tpi tkper, job well done k-nite! heee.

will update again k?

tag tag always. (:

anw,

Happy Belated 18th Birthday Fazari! (:

sorry for the late wish. May happiness be with u always..

& hope our frenship last till eternity(:

Happy 5th year Frenshiversary to Bestie, KazDanial.

I love u.

No one can replace u.

U know im always here for u. (:

may our frenship last till eternity..

1 week Post :)

2009-05-02T04:38:00.000-07:00

Hey sorry for the lack of updates people!

was really caught up w very tight schedule.

anws, went to anugerah audition

to support Sani & he got thru! Congratss!

Reallyyy happy for him man!:)

There were some of our

show choir members who also joined the audition

& they got thru to!

Congrats to u guys as well!:)

(sorry i didnt mention names, i dun realli rmber all ;S)

but sadly 1 or 2 didnt make it thru.

its okie aite, mungkin bukan rezeki kita..

So i guess i'll the picts do the talking for now! :)

Saturday 2nd May 09

Anugerah Audition

Bella's Sisters.

cuteee right? like twins. hee.

Teha's Birthday ;)

1st May 09

Nenek's house

Cute right?? kecik2 pandai posingg.

Thursday 30 April 09

Sani's Belated Bday!

One of the sweetest couple I ever saw! :)
Bella~Sani

'Somebody' tried to interframe here! ;p

During one of our CMS lectures.

These shows that im awake ok! ;p

Monday 27th April 09

Tennis w Coach Syafi'ee
keje part time eh zam? ;p

Sunday 26th April 09

BERGEMA

singing competition

Sani~April~Kaz

THE END

ps: We just have to live. The rest will come along eventually.

Its saturday for goodness sake!

2009-04-24T22:59:00.000-07:00

Telematch on Friday

I kind of look abit dark or tan i shall say, in one of the picts. ohgosh.

anw, the day & date on my blog is totally an error. So ignore it aite:)

only 1/4 of PA

Aqidah, Hycal, Gerald, ME & Rizal! ;D

Rizal & Wifi ;D

Zul :)
Jam Nizam. Feeling2 jap! heee.
Zyra :)

Beloved Sani :)

H E L L O! :)

yesterday aft having lunch w classmates, me & Aqidah went for audition for show choir & glad to say we got in! ;D weeee~! I tot i wasnt gd enough for that cca. hehe. then aft going thru the judging, st8 away we join the rest & learn some new songs. Mcm cool la! hehehe. Ohyeah, & Thanks to our lovely classmates who wished us luck! :)

Then SC ends at about 7plus. Then since I was really really famished throughout the singing etc, I followed Aidil, Dillah, Kaz & Nana to Tong Seng & had our dinner. Reached hm bout 11plus. Luckily mum nvr nag! hehe;D

so for today, i guess im not going out.. Need to complete CMS & rest my legs. Hopefully I can go through beep test next wk w great patience & stamina at heart. hehe. susah tau. ;P

wish me luck! :)

wait up for the next post k~

" There's nothing scarier than getting what you want because that's when you really have something to lose."

2009-04-23T07:27:00.000-07:00

i really miss the old times where we get to spend time w each other. ;'(

i miss our frenship...

do U?

2009-04-21T07:02:00.000-07:00

Sunday, 19 April 09

Bridal Showcase at Granduer Fai

How do i look? Ada ciri2 model tk!? hehehehee. Jussss kidding! :P

ex-damai schmate, Quraisyah aka Q

*winks*

so sweet & gorgeouss rytee?:)

These pleasant people :)

Me, my make-up artist & a sweet sweet ladyy ;))

with Kak Hidayah:)

& Lastly Abg Fai, owner of the Granduer Fai :)

2009-04-20T06:18:00.000-07:00

sometimes I wonder if for all these years

have i been a good fren to you?

Im so confused by ur actions..

One moment we were quarrelling,

but the nxt moment seems like everythings alrite

without Us even resolving our problem.

what isit tat u want? Can U pls dont make me wonder?

U told me tat u feel unappreciated or not needed anymore..

But have U tot bout my feelings?

Have U ever tot bout wat ur love ones tink bout U?

I appreciate U for U..

wat more accepting U for who U r for all these yrs.

I tried my best to understd U

but u push me away saying U dun need my advise.

How does tat makes me feel??

Im so so hurt by your words & tat shows y

i kept quiet all the way throughout our bus journey.

I always pray to Allah for U.

I always pray to Allah to make U stronger &

make U bcome a better person.

Bt its not just bout praying to him..

Its bout whether we wana take a change or let our lives b tiz way.

I cant deny that I may not be a gd advisor or listener.

Im just trying my best to be me.

If U tink tat U have found a better bestfren than me..,

wat more can i say?

For all the times that

ive given in to U,

Worried for U,

Advise U,

Cry for U,

Love U.

Do U tink U'll be able sacrifice it back for me?

At least once in a lifetime?

;'(

2009-04-18T04:11:00.000-07:00

hey people!

its been a tiring day for me eversince yst..

sch strts at 8 & ended at 12..

But since we got principal talk at 3pm,

all of us had lunch & headed to the sch gym!

Then we all gather outside auditorium.

some went, some cabot..

so tell me? who wants to go for such draggy talks kn?

but i tink i kind of gain something frm 2 of the talks.

It was like a motivational talk..

So aft it ended, i headed home & got myself ready to watch the 'CATS' musical at esplanade. It was really good! I dun regret watching it ;) & lucky me I get to watch it for free. Thanks Kaz & Natri. :)

U guys shud check it out on youtube k! :)

Ohya, 1 of the songs titled, 'Memory' sounds really nice & familiar.

Go go go listen to it k!! hehehe.

as for today,

I played badminton jus now at 12plus

& it ended at 5plus which includes breaks in between.

Althou tiring but its worth it. *winks*

Maybe shud try playing

basketball or street soccer nxt wk?

hehekz.

K then, update next time!

Tc.

2009-04-16T06:07:00.000-07:00

Today's lecture for sport science is really confusing man.. :(

wats more confusing is the accent of our subj teacher who is a Scottish.

but hopefuli kan in wks to come i can get use to it.

Luckily Wifi, Zul & Chelsea was there to xplain to me abit. Kalao tk kita slow & lost jer. :(

anw, jus now went jogging for 1.5hrs n badminton for half hr. realli tiring la..

I dunno why im so concern bout my image these days.

maybe cause wen i c other people looking so fit & tone I felt like im not suitable for the course.

but some people told me to take it slow first.

but realli im jus scared la. i tink im the heaviest amg the gerls? ohgosh. :S

i need to sets thing right.. i need to lose weight! somebody helppp..

:((

14 April ~ Wat a day.

2009-04-11T21:17:00.001-07:00

helloo fellow readers!

as u all knw,

april intake for ite has jus begun

so u guys shud figure y tis blog is dead for a few days.. *grins*

the orientation was okokla

but some find it unexciting but we understd

that the bridge leaders were trying their best.

well, i kind of like feel insecure for these 2days

cause ive been wondering & thinking

if i can go through these course or not.

I knw I dun wana give it up jus like that.

I knw I must not disappoint my parents.

Bt realli.. tis feeling jus wont go away... :(

I just talked to Bestie bout it & it seems like it doesnt make any much difference.

Oh God, pls guide me through the right path..

I feel soo exhausted.

will update again soon!

In the meantime, hope u guys enjoy the picts below! :)

Toodles.

11 APRIL 09

Sani's 19th Bday :)

bowling at east coast :)
9th APRIL 09
The HUNKS

The BABES

Sani & Belle :)

The End

2009-04-11T01:33:00.000-07:00

will update soon (:

2009-04-07T23:52:00.000-07:00

Just because her eyes don't tear,

doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry..

And just because she comes off strong,

doesn't mean there's nothing wrong..

...

2009-04-06T21:27:00.000-07:00

Friday, 3rd April

Reunite

Another bunch of love.

My Wonderful Classmates.

Our 2 Favourite Cher. hee.

Fiqa, Farah & Noni..

Mr Saiful, Mina, Kaz & Khai..

Kinah, Fizah & Iqah

YenC, Khairi, Millicent & Jaliah..

Beloved Form Teacher, Mr Cheah :)

Our Journey Home

Happy Ending.

Monday Blues..

2009-03-22T21:35:00.000-07:00

21st mac 2009 Helluuu people! i am soo elated ryte now coz mum & dad jus got home frm m'sia jus now!! :D weeheee~ alhamdulillah they r bck safe & sound. :) the reason being is coz im not used to being alone at home without my parents by my side. & another reason was i have to do all the housework by myself without the help frm my brothers -__- So try n imagine all the sweeping, mopping, washing, laundering etc. all by yourself! alone! superr tiringggg u knw! but now i truly understand how mum felt wen she's alone doing all tat by herself. sucha pity:( & besides im more independant now. :) heehee.

My wkends were not as bad as i thought it wud be. I went to watch 'Gema Puisi Artistik' at Nanyang JC on sat. It was actuali a competition btwn schs in showing their creativity & skills based on the theme tat was given to them. I kinda forget wat it was about coz i was there to support Haniffa who was actuali the host for the competition. lol. But overall, it was realli realli good & all the schs did well.. & im sure to attend the upcoming gpa again in time to come coz its worth the money & time. :)

For yst i went to meet my ex-colleagues at watsons & i had Iqa tagging along w me. It was kind of last min plan & i treat them to kfc & chatted for awhile. Then i went to paya lebar & tapao nasi lemak coz i was craving for it as soon as i woke up in the morn. heehee. mcm org mengandung pulak. :P lol & then we went to my plc & watched senario the movie which was not tat bad la.. Sadly, our plan to jog at bdk res was cancelled coz Iqa wasnt feeling too well to exercise.. Soonaft wen the movie ended, i sent her to bus stp & then im all alone again at home! sheesh. So i did housework to distract myself, wash up at midnite & turn in.

Thank God im not alone at home aft today! heee:)

okla people, i wana get to gym now. Toodless!

2009-03-14T22:21:00.000-07:00

CURRENTLY missing these people here!

wonder wen im gonna meet them again.. Its been a wk alredy..

Ema & Billah ;)

Zab, Sani, a lil bit of Kaz & Me :)

All I can say is.. ive been going thru a week full of diff kinds of feelings..
Tears. Disappoinment. Gladness. Blessedness.
all tis happens for a reason..

Im saying tis bcoz the thought of how long my parents are gonna be in tis world always strikes me..
I cant imagine going thru the rest of my days & lifes without them..
but they always say, the ones who live will die one day..

My parents r in the late 50s & 60s now . While im only 17..
c how far our age gap is? sigh.
I dun even knw if I have much time to let them see the success or achievement in my studies or my working life..

My eyes can go all teary tinking bout them..
all i cud do was say a prayer to Allah to let them live for as long as they can..
I always have tis feelings tat the world is getting older & death is getting nearer. Im truly afraid to go thru all these..
all we can do is repent & change for the better..

OK. lets talk out something else..
tinking bout all these makes me go weak n teary..

lately, ive been trying hard to lose weight & maintain my stamina
Going to gym has been a regular routine for me & I cant miss a wk without getting there..
Ive got 4wks b4 sch starts & surely I wana look good & healthy b4 starting the course.. Im sure everyone wants to fit it & look good like other people ryte?
but all these exercise makes me breathless & sick sometimes. *wonders*

for today it seems like the weather is not letting me out of house ryte now.
hmm. but its gonna go away soon.. so i guess i shud get change alrite..
blog some other time! toodles readers. ;)

2009-03-08T06:55:00.000-07:00

HEY! :)

really sorry for the lack of updates.. most of the time ive been going out & by the time i get home, im too tired to update! :(

anws, for the pass 1 wk ive been heading to e gym & its been causing me to have breathing problems lately.. I cant bearly sleep at peace or sit around at ease. I dunno if it was cause by my food intake or over-exercise. :( jus hope tat it will go away soon...

anw, my weekends were great! had a good time w bestfren, Zab, Sani & family.. On sat, i accompanied both Kaz & Sani to their buskers festival at downtown & heard them sing alot of songs.. at the same time collided w some sch frens & talked for awhile..:)

then later, Zab & mama fetched us & we head to Tanglin Mall for the flee market. Most of the items sold there were clothes & it didnt really interest me. I jus bought a nice belt which cost only $2 frm Zab. so cheapp huh.. it was $5 at first but price reduced! weee;D

aft tat went to Yishun to watch Sani perform bt otw in the car i fell into deep sleep coz i didnt have much rest the night b4. Sani perform 4 songs straight which i find it pretty breathtaking & i could see tat he was kind of tired & breathless at some parts of the song but still great performance! ;D

we then had supper at Adam's place at boon keng before I got home & get a pretty hard scolding frm mum & dad. :S but thank god, Kak Edah was there to talk it out to them. Heee:D

tats it for now.. meeting Sylvia at gym later!

toodles! :)

24 Feb 09 - Problems needs to be solve before it gets any worse!! :S

2009-02-24T05:50:00.000-08:00

hey peeps! :)

its been quite awhile now that i didn't blog bout my life.

well basically, ill blog whenever im in the mood to or wen im not busy kaes.=)

anws..my life have been good & easy for now.. But im truly very worried bout wats happening to the lifes of my close ones.. Sometimes i do wonder whether i've given as much help to the people tat need me...whenever they share their probs to me, all i can do was listen attentively to them but maybe my advises doesnt help them much n that worries me more. I know that everyone is not perfect & I cant expect things to be perfect jus like imagine it. Always, a small voice kept saying to me to help them..but i dont really knw how.. I feel sad sometimes with the fact that I didnt really help them.. Even tis small situation can become a problem & it really makes me think whether I am even useful to them in their lives.. But I knw im trying to stay as positive as i can...

Basically, someone very close to me is having a really really hard time trying to juggle his probs, studies etc. I really donno wats gonna happen next coz Allah will be one testing us to our limits.. I can only pray to Allah to give him the fullest strength & patience he have to face in wateva challenges tat comes to his life.. & I will always be his pillar of strength whenever he feels like breaking down, giving up.. Its really truly deeply heartrending to see U being this way.. I dun show my feelings of sadness to U but only Allah knws deep down inside wat im feeling..

As a middle person, im really confuse on how to help him find a solution to his probs.. Im jus worried U will do something rash & hurt urself.. Uve never been this way lastime. Wayy back wen I knw U, U were always cheerful & not depressed.. But i knw I cant blame U with the kind of state ur facing ryte now.. Allah wants to test how far U can go to face his challenge, how wide U can think to find a solution to ur problems, how much U can value & learn from these experience & how Great Allah is. If only I could give U the kind of strength I have right now, I would! & hopefully my strength will make u stronger..

Pls Allah, make him strong..make him realise that all bad things will come to an end one day..make him realise that wen things get worse, it will get better in time..

Sigh. I just want u to know that ill ALWAYS be by ur side in ur bad or good times.. I dun want u to think tat everyone will hate U. Its up to the individual whether they want to be w u or not. & always remember tat things wont always turn out the way we want it to be, we cant always expect perfection frm the people we love & wateva probs u face ryte now will make u a better & stronger person in the future. Trust me. Cheer up Bestie... :/

1 week Post :)

2009-02-15T20:32:00.000-08:00

helloo lovely readers! ;) sorri for not updating for quite some time...hee. anws, we all know tat most of us have been busy celebrating valentines w our loved ones..& tat includes me as well..:) It was just a small celebration between me, Bestie, Kak Az & Muhd. Our plan was to have a meal at Pastamania but it was cancelled coz we couldnt find it at marina nor suntec.

Kaz was realli saddened by the fact tat he didnt get to eat there.. So we jus headed to Macd instead. It may be so called 'budget' but i am okie w anything as long as its not a waste of money :) but truly, tats the first time i felt realli2 full eating there coz we also had to finish up 20 pieces of nuggets bought by Kak Az! :@#^@*! LOL.

Ohyeah, aft tat we exchange gifts w each other i got a balloon scupture of a sunflower given by Bestie :) & a cookie frm Kak az which i alr eaten & didnt get to take the pict of it. & i gave them a heart shape card which i made it myself. hehe!:D Thanks guys for the gift!:) ur presence w me is alredy enuf to make my day:)

Me & Kak Azreena :)

Otw home from Suntec For Last Wed & Thur, I went to Esplanade Concourse to support the Vocal Group & Guitar Ensemble.. Both groups gave a splendid performance! & i have no regrets going there to support them for both days! :) went there w Kamsani's family & cousins..& on the 2nd day get to meet Billah & Nana. well at least we get to accompany each other thru out the performance..hee.

So here are the picts!:)

Me & Nana :)

The Vocal Group Singing, 'Hallelujah'

Future Superstar:)
Lau Pa Sat

Kaz, Kak Yani, Kamsani, Me, Hazirah.

Overdue pictures :P
At YaKun Kaya T3

~
till next time:)

Another Longgggg Post Ahead! :)

2009-02-03T21:35:00.000-08:00

3rd Feb 2009

Yesterday was a long & tiring day for me & Kaz.. I met him at Bedok & we headed to his sch for lunch. At the same time, i submitted my edusave form for sch fees. Later met some of his frens at cemta & sat ard w the malay dancers.. At about 6 we headed to toa payoh & got to mediacorp at ard 7pm. Luckily the others havent arrive.

All of us got into the bus & headed to chinese cemetery..only the main cast was needed to act in tat scene. Both of us jus sat in the bus w the china people & Kaz was trying hard to understnd them.. Bcoz the journey was long, he slept for awhile..& i was munching away w chipsmore. Hehe.

candid shot

& then he fell asleep..

so anw, as soon as we arrive at jurong point, we jus watch the others & got ready for our scene. It was nearly 10pm wen we started shooting. There was a bigg crowd near us & all eyes were on us & esp on Mark Lee.:) he was really funny & at least it kept all of us awake w his jokes. hehe.
wen my scene was over, i had to wait for Kaz for nearly 1-2hrs. By tat time all shops were closed & clock was ticking to 12.30 in the morn. I jus feel like dozing off on the floor.

but eventually wen all was over, its a wrap! :)
our director was glad & so are we coz we're heading home!

otw back to mediacorp

Ema&Iqah

Last Monday, I met up w my 3 lovely girl-friends at Bugis. We went shopping from bags to clothes to accessories. All of us were eager & looking forward to sch. I bought myself a sch bag & pairs of earrings. Aft tat we headed to Tong Seng & had lunch. As usual i ate my fav chicken mushroom noodle. yummy! been craving for it since last month. but wen i saw Iqah ate laksa, I feel like having one. Gosh.

We then headed to BHG & tats where our never ending trying of clothes started. lol. We killed bout 2-3hrs trying out clothes & most of the time, they were waiting for me to buy coz i was so undecisive. Hehehe. But last i bought myself 2 shirts frm surfers paradise.:) Then we headed home & bid goodbye..

Me.Ain.Iqa.Farah

Lastly.. went to watch Beloved Sani performed at Jurong Point in TalentQuest last sat & he sang Love Story by Andy Williams. I got chills & goosebumps everytime he sings a song which means he is realli good! Haha. He really got a powerful voice..u guys shud watch his videos on youtube k! ;)) heehe.

His parents, Mama & Ayah was there..Kaz, Zab, Syirah & her sibs, Aidil & his fren were also there to support him..:) & all of us gave support & voted for him & he got into the semi-finals. woohoo! Cant wait to watch him again.

So later, mama ayah me kaz zab & sani headed to Swensens before going to Hazirah's bday party. We spend alot of time eating & talking by the waterbreaker. & later at nite, Zab send me kaz & sani home..:)
& i am glad hazirah enjoyed her 15th Bithday;)
hee. tats it for now..

Kaz,Ema,Hazirah,Sani,Zab

Mama & Ayah's anak2 angkats. hehe.
except for Sani & Jufiqa.:)

Her family & cousins:)

The End
~

Lonngggg post ahead! :D (30 Jan 09)

2009-01-29T19:49:00.000-08:00

hey peeps! its been a week plus & lots of things are happening in my life.:) anws, tis morning...the results from jae was out today & i was posted to ite college east in sports management!! :D woohoo! i realli want tat course very much & thank god i got wat i wanted!:)) hee. Im soo gonna study hard for mum & dad..:D

candid 1

so last wed, i went to tamp gym w Ellah & we exercise for about 2hrs plus..it wasnt as long as b4..but btwn tat 2 hrs, it was a full total workout. I could barely walk..i was so shagged & it felt like i jus wana land myself on my bed at home! we didnt head home st8away aft tat..we went to bugis st to get Ellah a watch & i chose a teeny weeny cutie watch which caught my eye. heehe. & i tink it kinda suits her since she's small in size..:) so aft tat, we headed to bras basah cmplex to get paint frm art friend but it was close. So we had lunch till evening at Macd & the place have changed! the concept & image was veri nice..i like it alot:) u guys shud check it out! hee.

Lee's BBQ Pit ;)

ema, danial, lee & yana;)

anw, last sat..i met my working frens at Paya Lebar Mrt & the 3 of us headed to Clarke Quay Condo for swimming & gym. It was one of my fren's fren condo, Kimberly. The place was soo cool & we were soo 'jakon' & camwhore alot & wasnt focusing on gymming. lol. & we were having visions of how nice it wud be to live in tat place..lol..hopefully tat outing wont be the first & the last time w them..

ohyeah, aft spending time w the gerls, i wanted to meet a fren of mine tat wanted to offer me a job but it was cancelled. too bad for me. so i sms k.d up & met him at pasir ris to get to Lee's family bbq. I was kind of shy & insecure at first coz i dont realli knw his frens but it went well later..& made new frens w Yana & her other malay dance frens which i dont quite rmber their names. hehe. sorri bout it:) so i guess let the pict do the talking now! :D

ema, ezah, ikah :)

the treadmill's got a tv on it! :) coolness.

girls will always be girls

snap 1

snap 2
at the jakuzi..

check this out!

leaving a mark at

the place for

the last time.

& here are some other picts!

muhd & danial

danialema

tats it for now lovelies! ill be back for more updates!

toodles! ;)

3 Days post ;)

2009-01-18T18:57:00.000-08:00

hey readers!:) i had a good time since last 3 days...

for yesterday..:)
I met the guys last min at lucky plaza & we walked all the way to plaza sing.. kaz wanted to buy a couple ring w heffalump engraved on it. hehehe. but the man say it wont turn out nice coz the pict mite b cut off coz of the size. so he felt upset for awhile. lol. so we did the chip & dale & our names engraved on it. he's Chip & im Dale.hehekz. anw. its jus a frenship ring..not more than tat...lol.
so we sat at Macd & had a long talk till 8plus & headed home! ;)

On Sat,

Kaz, Kamsani & I went to mediacorp for audition. It was a really far journey frm the east side to tat place & we have to be out frm house early & had to be there ard 10.. anws the audition was good. kind of nervous at first coz u have to face to face w the director alone..isnt tat scary?! gosh. & its quite a long time alr tat ive been for audition etc.
aft tat we took a bus all the way to boon lay which took us about an hr plus..? the journey felt really longg for me...gosh.:-S lucky for the guys, they get to sleep. they needed a rest coz as soon as we reach boon lay, we need to get to bukit gombak by mrt for their dance rehearsal..so much things to do in one day & its pretty tiring totaling up the long journey frm one plc to the other.

& for friday..
went to gym w kaz at bedok & we sign in to the place at ard 6 plus. At tat point there were so many guys in tat place & being the onli gerl there at first was abit uncomfortable coz everyone is looking ur way..:-S but luckily there were a few more other girls who came in so i felt relieve aft tat..phew! :)
so i mind my own business there..couldnt care less bout the people ard me..
So aft gymming, we went banquet & we shared yong tau foo & green tea..:) then we headed home ard 10.

well,
tats it then for the long posts. hope u guys had taken ur time to read. hehe.
;)

toodles!

2009-01-15T02:18:00.000-08:00

Ema~Ellah ;D

hey peeps! :D its been quite awhile now i didnt update bout my life..anws, as u all knw.. Olevel results were out last monday! & some of u mus b wondering how i did for it ryte? ;) well..i didnt do too well for it..sadly.. & majority of my classmates didnt do too well either..:(

but thats okiee..in life theres always choices..:) so i have decided to take up business course since its the onli choice i have..but i guess its not tat bad..gotta give it a try..who knws i can be a successful businesswoman one day! ;) lol.

anws, i cant wait to workout at gym tmrow..wana try n lose some pounds again if i can..Sumhow its one of my resolutions for this year..=)

other than tat, hopefully i can get the choice of course tat i want & work exra hard for my family. Dun wana disappoint them again for the 2nd time..

I'll end it here then! till the next post! :D

toodles!

2009-01-01T00:20:00.000-08:00

I've been tagged by misslaydee:)

so here goes..
Rule #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question which they formulated by themselves
Rule #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continuing this game by sending to other people.
1. Do you have secrets?

uhuh. of coz.

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl older than you?

maybe..it depends how old is he.

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?

for as long as i love him. but i tink it will be long. yeah.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
~save for my future needs

~bring mum & dad for holiday

~give some to my brothers to get married

~continue with studies

~donate to the needy

~get myself a car

~shopping

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
maybe..somehow..if we r meant for each other..

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
being loved by someone..

7. How do you define love?
love occurs in frenship. unexplainable but the feeling is great. it may change u or destroy u.

8. If a person you secretly like is attached, what would you do?
move on. i jus like him not love him. maybe he's just eye-candy.

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
not for now. happiness doesnt come easy..

10. What makes you sad?
`when the ones i love left.

`when we knw we're hurt & pretend we're not.

`looking at the state of my family

`when we hope tat someone listens but they dont.

11.How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
`have a gd career

`get married & have kids

`always happy by his side

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
`my family

`my bestfriend

`my friends

13. What is being regarded as the most important thing in your life?
`my mum

`my bestfriend

`my studies

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
single and rich. i can get married later.

15. What is your favourite colour?
black

brown

white

16. If you fall in love with two people silmutaneously, and both of them do the same, who would you pick?
the one i tink i love most.

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing that someone has done?
i do forgive..in time i may forget..but if its bout my pride, nvr forget.

18. What do you want to tell to that someone you love?
i love u since the first, now.. & for as long as my heart is still beating.

19. If there's a choice between lover and friends, who would you choose?
if my lover is my friend, i got no problem w that.

20. Do you believe there's 'True Love'?
there is.
5 people who's going to do this survey:
-anyone is free to do so.

2008-12-13T19:34:00.000-08:00

Ohmy.. Its been ages i last updated this blog! :) it mus b dead by now.. heehe. let me put it to live again!hahaha. ok lame-_- so..my holidays been filled w work & work & meet ups aft work & home. Its the same routine everyday..well i didnt xpect work to fill up my time soooo much tat i dun have time to do things tat i love to do like blogging, gymming, hang outs ! ;( i miss the fun i had w frens ALOT...i miss class chalet as well..:( i wonder if all of us ever gonna stay in contact aft we take our results n proceed on our separate ways... it mus b realli saddening if we ever lost in touch!..i heard there'll b a class gathering again..mayb to zoo or ...? erm..i forget wat isit..but i hope it will come real soon! :D heee.

anw, bestie's been having a tough life ryte now. i pity him alot but sumhow im not the kind tat shows it in the way i advise or talk. i will help..but i hope thru my actions..he sees it..:( its the same like wen u love the person, & ur scared of telling them, u show it thru ur actions & give a sign..ryte? well..problems have been coming up one aft another & i knw how stressful it cn b for him to juggle those probs & tight sch schedule. plus, those people tats been hurting him & making his life difficult will bear w the consequences to come. its gonna b karma. & somehow wen i heard his stories,it can make me shed a tear but being stoned hearted sometimes..i take it easy n cool..other times i can b softhearted.. hopefulli his problems will fade away n b solved one by one coz theres always solution to any probs..but nevertheless..ill always b there for him thru joy & pain...

2008-11-20T04:43:00.000-08:00

its been quite awhile i havent update bout my life now.
Since yst, i started working & if u people mite b wondering how it was..i wud say tiring. tats normal for first timers like me.. but the fun & frenly people there makes me looking forward for work.. i was kind of nervous at first coz i heard its a tough job there & punctuality was top priority. well, surprisingly im very early since yst. & i do hope in time my habit of procrastinating wud fade away. :)

anws, last 2 days went picnic w Hani, Faz, Dee, Naz, Kel, Kaz. Ain & Iqa cant make it for the picnic. So all of us surprised Dee w bday cake, food, presents etc. She was happy thou tat we rmbered her birthday. ;) they had alot of camwhore but i was jus enjoying my time w the breeze & play 'stress' w Kaz. hahakz. we were relli stress playing tat game. kinda panic. heehe;D
me, Kaz, Faz, Hani went Ehub aft tat to catch HSM3. hahakz. we were rili desperate to watch it & Kaz was touched by the romantic parts & i find his reaction funny. I was busy quarelling w Hani during the shw coz i felt squeezed aft he changed seats w Faz. hehehe. anws, the shw was nice. basically im tired to elaborate longer.. anw, Zac Efron makes me *melt* hehe;D

ohyes, plan to mit Kaz yst but cancel, today cancel, maybe tmrow cancel or never. pft. nvm..he needs his own life too i gues.. but i jus wanted to shr my thoughts to him..somehow a fren to talk to..tats all..i knw i cant rely on him tat much..have to b independant.. but everyone at least needs someone to talk to..hopefully things will b bck to normal..
till the next post! :)

2008-11-07T02:38:00.000-08:00

woke up at 8 plus today.. was planning to wait for Ellah to gimme wake up call but end up i got out of bed myself. this is always the case. hehe.
so met her at ard 1plus coz she wanted me to accompany her for her hair treatment. well its been long tat we havent met & i kinda miss her 'jakon-ness' sometimes..hehe..dun mind me saying tis Ellah ;D
hehee. anws, i was late coz i had to do some things at home & i tot she might take her time to get to Bedok but it seems tat im always the one who procrastinates. well, i knw some people get pissed w me sometimes for waiting too long.. but i will try to improve myself in the future. hehe. really. :)
her treatment took bout 1hrplus & it wasnt tat bad waiting.. I can wait for people but i do get sleepy easily..hehe..
the outcome of her hair was cool, she looks like some chique going to a rock concert..lol. & the chinese guy in tat salon was cute;) hardly for me to fall for chinese guy but this one's not tat bad huh. haha. & we were talking & smiling & he touched my hair for a sec jus to take a look at it. gosh. *melting*;) hee

aft the whole thing, we went off to tm, slack2 for awhile, drink bubble tea & headed home! well tats it for today..nothing much to talk bout now..till nxt time..~toodles! ;)

2008-10-23T23:15:00.000-07:00

memories of 5A2

its been 3 wks i abandon this blog for awhile. well..most of u shud knw tat im facing my Os tis yr..so understdable ehh...hee ;) btw, jus now was math ppr 1 & it was going fine at first wen i did it but the last few qns always kill me..so im not tat confident whether i can pass well on tis one..god willing..

hmm..anw, life's been great lately..esp w him ard..didnt xpect things to turn out tis way. & i knw its kinda too early & tat we just knew each other..but i guess ive alot to learn & improve myself...i dunno if this is the right thing to think bout now..but i guess i'll just go w the flow...;)

its been 2 days tat ive been walking back n forth to sch in the rain..& the changing weather gives me frequent headaches.. hopefully i dun get fever esp during tis exam period..i need all the strength i have to finish it once & for all.. im left w 6more pprs & cant wait to celebrate & work.. so, im gonna meet bestie Een later to discuss w her bout my art.. gonna prepare it asap coz im onli left w 4 days b4 art! argh. things like this happens wen u dun have the interest on art. so dun ever take up tis subject jus bcoz u have to or bcoz ur frens r taking it. so yeah. a gd piece of advice there. hehehe;). b4 tat, here r some picts during jalan raya w my frens.. so enjoyyy! :)

otw to Nas's house i tink:)

my home sweet home:))

at Naz's

The End.
:)

2008-10-05T05:26:00.000-07:00

Kaz Danial & Ema

I feel down today..feels like shit too..sucha stupid mistake tat i make can ruin my feelings for the rest of the day...trying to tink positive here...relax ema..u got nothing to lose...lets just forget bout it..makes me feel more regret & sad..

anw, ive been sitting the whole day thru infront of pc practising some songs on keyboard & editting some picts.. i made a collage of me & kaz (above)..well..it looks okie to me..it was my first time thou..hopefully he likes it wen he sees it..i dun feel the atmosphere of raya tat much tis yr..most of the time i jus sit at home waiting for mum to get bck frm work..i cant wait for Os to end coz i wana start working & earn my own money for the first time..sadly i didnt get to work last yr aft my N levels..mayb coz the employers tink i wasnt eligible enough to work at their place..sheesh. Im gonna get one as sn as exams r over..hopefully uh..suddenly i feel like i need to let out something n let u knw..

to my dearest fren..mayb u might or might not knw im referring to u..

i just wana say tat i'm sorry if the way i speak & my actions r rough to u..mayb u didnt felt anything or tink tat its nothing. but i feel tat mayb sumhow i did something bad & i feel guilty bout it sometimes..i knw tat im not as special as other gerls..im not perfect & im jus being myself..sometimes my actions may show tat im not supportive towards u or care towards u..but deep inside i want u to knw tat i do care for u..i always have & i always will..sometimes its hard for me to show wen ur responds towards me doesnt let me to. the memories tat we have in our yrs of frenship have made me wat i am today..i am nothing without u. till the day i let go of my last breath,i want our frenship to last.. nothing else matters to me ryte now..i jus want to spent time together & remain tis way as it is..& i want u to knw tat no matter wat happens..im here for u..to get u thru ur tough times..i want to be the perfect friend in ur eyes..thanks bestie for having me as a fren in ur life..

~happy birthday to me...

2008-10-02T19:47:00.000-07:00

It feels great to turn 7-teen yst! ;) met bestie aft sch at 3 & we headed to WS to get his hair done at Arches. biasala org tu kalao da dpt duit raya, st8 away gi! hehe x) ! aft tat, we went to CAVANA to have our early dinner. I ate teriyaki w beef & he ate black pepper w chicken. I didnt wana eat there at first coz i wana save cash to buy other stuffs. But since it was my first time there i jus gave it a try. It was not bad aft all. Walk ard for awhile & i bought myself a necklace,nail buffer & a dress. It was a very short day for me coz i have to jln raya w family aft tat.

As soon as i got home, i took my bath & got myself ready. At ard 8plus,dad & i took cab & fetch mum frm work & aft tat we headed to BeDok South. We went to 4 houses & it took us nearly an hr for each house. which means we got home at 12plus in the morn. My legs were shaking & trembling by then.

So today, i didnt get to sch..hehe..too tired to wake up frm sleep. but i kinda regret coz the subjects taught in sch today were important..I'll hafta catch up w others then.. Anw, going out to meet Haniffa later..he's going to teach me Math! hehe. At least theres someone to help me wen im in need. hehe. i'll stop here for now...;)

ps: thanks everyone for the b'day wish;) appreciate it alot. & thanks Kaz for spending my day w me. Much Love.;)

2008-09-27T22:58:00.001-07:00

Pictures were taken at simei during our break fast at 18 CHEFS.

;))

miss these people!;( hopefully can meet them again during raya. insyaallah.

2008-09-23T06:59:00.000-07:00

today's a long & tiring day..stayed in sch until 6plus to finalise on art. i completed mine quite early & i jus laze ard & slept awhile while waiting for ju,ais,mili,atiq to finish theirs. i was so fatigue & sleepy i wish i cuz jus leave the place.! O_O

anw, as sn as we get out of sch it was 6 plus..nearing the time for us to break fast.. soo bcoz i was sleepy hungry n wana save money,i walked home. hehehe. it was a fast one..thanks to my long legs..;)) hehekz. otw nk balik..bought bubble tea & watermelon. but of coz i didnt drink it as sn as i buy it..lol..at times i can b forgetful sometimes..even during fasting month.. ;)

i wonder why at times i kept gasping for air..its like my heart was beating faster as normal for a few nites & a few days later i felt okie..sometimes i even got it every nite..i knw for sure tat i dont have asthma or heart disease..hopefuly not..i guess im gonna have check ups if it gets worse...

i guess tats all for now..bed's calling alr..heheks! ;)

till then.

2008-09-17T04:45:00.000-07:00

my results for prelims are not satisfying.. well i read this from somewhr saying tat.. 'if u work hard, the results are easy. If u work easy, the results are hard..' i have to start studying smart frm now.. cos its good-for-nothing if u studied alot but u don't knw how to apply it.

anw,

O levels are in 3 & a half wks time. its coming very fast & im pretty sure most of my frens are not quite prepared for it. coz we seemed to relax for awhile aft the prelims.lol. It sucks wen ur goin to face exams during hari raya. but i cant wait to get it over & done with & then i feel free!hehe. hopefully the class chalet thats held the nxt day aft our exams end will happen..coz tiz might be the last time tat all of us r free coz aft tis everyone will have their own paths to take. besides tat, mum & dad will be working everyday during raya.. their off day should be only once a wk? i have to stay home everyday then.. such a waste. ;(

The plan to meet Kaz today was cancelled..due to his late rehearsals. hmm. such a waste..im so free today..oh well its okie..he might be shagged by the time he meets me..

i tink im gonna start studying later..at least i will be more confident to face exams. hehehe..

till then..

2008-09-15T01:47:00.000-07:00

since last wk, ive been spending time on preparatns for prelims. Its realli exhausting mentally & physically for me coz i hate studying n sch. Taking tis path to Olevels wasn't my choice but mum's.. i had to follow her orders i guess..cant wait to grad sn in about 2 mths time? tats still longg for me...

anw, weekends was okay i suppose..went out on sat to bestie's house n heard him karaoke..& then went to his hse again on sun & we did the same thing bt since i had to do my art, we head out to Raffles to snap some photos for it & i started working on the prep work early monday morning. which is today..hmm..the art ppr jus now was okie..but i couldnt stand the 3 hrs of sitting down coz i have this back problem & it affects my breathing & i felt like i cant bear w it anymore..

i jus prayed hard i could finish it coz it was the onli subj i could depend on..

anw..there r some things on my mind tat bothers me..

ive been having this sweating disorder since i was a kid & i felt awful & ashamed of it. The feeling of disgrace frm it occurs everytime wenever im out w anyone & wen im xperiencing it. It may be a normal thing to some people wen they hear me say bout it but as a girl it really brings down my self-esteem..do u see normal girls sweating wen they r jus walking for a few distance or wen the weather is jus right for the day? well no is it. its very rare for girls to have this kind of thing. maybe its in my genes..& i cnt change it i guess. even if im out w bestie, i still feel ashamed although he's seen me at my worse..i jus hope things change as i grow up later..coz right now i feel ashame wen i wana meet new people..its one of barriers tat prevents me frm doing so..

well i hope someone knws how i feel...

2008-09-06T23:13:00.000-07:00

had a gd time yst..

as soon as i got up frm sleep, i took my bath n got ready to head to vivo to support kamsani for his audition in 'IgotTalent'..me & kaz send his sis off for tuition at jln damai & we continued our journey frm eunos mrt. the bus ride frm my hse to eunos was a terrible one..i get nausea or dizziness easily. Well since its fasting month, i cant take my med..

wen we got there, april,nat,sani & zab was there & kaz had a last-min sign up for the audition. zab & me were supporters & we jus stood there waiting for them to finish their audition..all of them were in solo category & they did pretty well for their audition..i was impress w their voices..& kaz was nervous wen he sang..well..understndable tat it was his first public audition & he did it last min which was a brave start..=)

to cut story short..aft vivo..kaz & me headed to yellow ribbon concert w hadi & nurul (kaz's counsins) to support aliff aziz. they were quite close to his family & got xtra tix n it was nice tat they offer us to go together. well..the concert's quite bored at first coz most of the time the hosts were speaking chinese..well if onli i understd them..the 4 of us head off to simpang bedok as soon as aliff finish singing. I had a very heavy meal frm the nasi goreng pattaya..plus the cheeseburger & donuts tat we ate b4 the concert. I felt like throwing up everything.

As sn as i reached hm, it was alr 11 plus which was way over my curfew!

well,anw tat was yst..

today im breaking fast alone i guess. everyone's out & busy..

lucky thing i got a stack of dvd's to entertain me tis time..

wat a day...

so i guess tat ends tis post..gonna prepare lots of food for myself later!

later!

2008-09-03T23:31:00.000-07:00

its been exactly a month i didnt update tiz blog..

gosh..its longer than i thought...the last update was 4 aug?

well..many things happened in a month & i felt theres too many things to blog about...

so anw, im having study break for a wk but most of the days were spend in sch jus to finish my coursework.. lucky thing its alr over since yest...i feel so free & i can breath better than ever..jus tat im quite worried bout my prelims tats jus round the corner..havent started studying & im still lazing ard..hehe..

anw,

last sunday was great! went out w kaz,shafiq,nadia & lut to spore flyer!we had a great time there..we ate at popeye's first b4 we took off n had our ride..our timing was diff..kaz,me & shafiq took our ride at 8 while nad&lut took theirs at 7.30..kaz wanted to giv them some privacy i suppose..hurhur..;D

so we xpected the half-hr ride to be long but it was quite fast & kaz didnt feel satisfied..lol..we saw the view n night lights n it was superb..such a waste i didnt have a camera w me..wenever im out w them, i didnt feel like going hm coz having them is gd enough to make me happy..

so today, i had to stay at home..dad's been pestering me to stay put at home since morning..wanted to meet kaz today to break fast w him but too bad it didnt happen..i feel so diff n lonely if i dont meet him at least for awhile..

i feel diff today..wenever i stay at home..too many things conquers my mind..sometimes i can even tink of negative things bout my love ones..it makes me so stressed up wen i find it hard to shr w people bout this kind of situation im in..i try not to tink too much..& sometimes crying makes me feel better..i shared my thoughts n feelings w someone..& am i glad he knws how i feel..lucky thing he prompt me or else i'l be feeling confused & lost till now..

so i guess tats it for now..hopefully i can get out of hse tmrow! hehehe.

till den.=)

2008-08-04T01:06:00.000-07:00

So today morning i woke up n took my bath but i didnt went to sch coz i wasnt feeling well inside, outside, emotionally..yeahh..even if i did go i mite be giving cold shoulder to my frenz..so its betta for them not to be my victim ryte..

wat i did today?hmm. i jus sat home alone & had time for myself..bros n dad working n mum went to auntie's hse..i thought of forcing myself to jog coz i wana train for x-country. surprisingly im looking forward to it.haha.:D

i guess some people mus be wondering y i dont relli share my probs anymore to them? mayb coz im jus not sure how to let it out. Some say i change but i guess tis change is onli for awhile..i'll b alrite once i found back myself.. it's tough wen ur the one going thru it..usualli i share it everytime w my close ones..but now i find it hard..i tot tat i could depend on 'this person' but it seems tat he/she dont rili care bout me..mayb they dont need me anymore..i'll feel empty insidee...

:'(

2008-08-03T00:53:00.000-07:00

jus now morning went downstairs n play soccer w 2nd bro. was kinda lazy at first but wen i tink agn,i guess tats the only time i hav w him so yeah..he borrowed me his jersey..well i look kinda funny in it at first but i get used to it alr..haha..he taught me how to dribble n stuffs etc. wateva it is tat has gotta do w soccer. hehe. so we play for awhile n headed to bubble thing aft tat & he treated me to my usual chocolate oreo ice blend. so much for losing weight eyy..hah;)

ard 3 plus jus nw, ain called me to pass me some things tat she bought for me back frm her kampong, not sure whrs tat but somewhr in m'sia. we talked for awhile coz i kinda miss her wen she was away for a few days & i did thank her parents for the things they bought & then i bid them gdbye. so here i am telling u my story. haha. till then. gonna take my bath nw. lol. tc. :)

2008-08-01T17:51:00.000-07:00

watched cartoon w my big bros ystrdy nite at youtube & we were so xcited bout it, esp them.:) they wanted to watched the old cartoons frm the 80s & we did found some like popeye,gummy bear,mask etc. & anw it was a very rare get together session at hm coz they are always busy w work & im always alone. so it was kind of sweet n touching for me tat they find time to spent w me. & even at their age of middle 20s,they were still interested in cartoon n kiddy stuffs. how cute..;) dad made roti telor & 2nd bro fry some maggi for me so i was kinda full aft tat & i couldnt sleep. read up on the bk i borrowed frm library coz im in the need of losing wght again. smangat kn? haha. anw,im meeting kaz later. dunno whr to but i hope we'll turn out fine coz we havent meet for quite some time.
tats all for now:)

2008-07-31T00:14:00.000-07:00

Its been awhile i neglected my blog..everyday i gotta drag myself to sch & it feels shagged w all the exercises n stuff. Who doesnt feel like dying w the 4 times a wk of exercise plus the boring revisions tat our teachers give. How i wish deres no such things as physics or humanities. Life wud be so great for me!

So anw,these pass few days was alright i guess..nothing much to talk bout..xcept tat i havent been meeting kaz for awhile & it feels kinda weird coz we will at least meet up every wk even if its for awhile..the last meet was on mon & aft tat we jus contact thru fone..he's been very busy w his sch performance n stuff so i guess i gotta b an understnding bestie huh? :] so jus now my class was planning for teachers day performance & we kill almost an hour talking bout it coz every1 was undecisive on certain things. & today had to attend study hr but every1 dcided to cabot. so i guess the whole class mite get punishment tmrow? hopefully not! hehe.

thats all for now:)